This is an excerpt from Day 2 of the 21 Day Challenge....
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Day 2: Overweight physically and underweight spiritually
Thought for the Day: God made us capable of craving so we’d have an unquenchable desire for more of Him, and Him alone. Nothing changes until we make the choice to redirect our misguided cravings to the only One capable of satisfying them.
My journey to healthy eating didn’t gain traction by counting calories or obeying rules of the food pyramid. The process began in earnest when I admitted that, yes, I was overweight physically. But, more importantly, I was underweight spiritually. I was spiritually malnourished. Tying these two issues together is what opened my eyes to see God in a whole new way.
I’m reminded of the story in the Bible where a rich young man comes to see Jesus. The young man explains that he is following all the religious rules, but still feels something is missing from his pursuit of God. He asks, “What do I still lack?” Jesus answers, “If you want to be perfect [whole], go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me” (Matthew 19:20 – 21 NIV).
The rich young man then goes away sad because he won’t give up the one thing that consumes him. He is so full with his riches he can’t see how undernourished his soul is. It’s at this point in the biblical story that most of us start to look at all the rich people we know and think, “Well, I sure hope they get this message. Good thing I’m not rich. Good thing Jesus doesn’t ask me to sacrifice in this way.” Or does He?
Jesus meant His comment for any of us who wallow in whatever abundance we have. I imagine Jesus looked straight into this young man’s soul and said, “I want you to give up the one thing that you crave more than Me.”
For me, I was like the rich young man when it came to eating. I refused healthier breakfast options, such as egg whites and fruit, while filling myself with candy-sprinkled doughnuts. I choose soda instead of water, chips instead of carrot sticks. Even when my sugar high crashed and I complained of splitting headaches, sluggishness, and unwanted extra weight, I steadfastly refused to even consider giving up my daily brownie.
God made us capable of craving so that we’d have an unquenchable desire for more of Him, and Him alone. Nothing changes until we make the choice to redirect our misguided cravings to the only One capable of satisfying them.
Paul wrote to Christians, “I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better” (Ephesians 1:17 NIV).
I don’t know about you, but to me this one benefit of knowing God better is worth all the effort and sacrifice that a healthy eating journey requires. It’s easy to feel that our struggle with food is such an unfair deal. But I encourage you to see the process today as a path that offers both physical and spiritual benefits.'
I realized over the weekend that I am that rich man. I can tell people how to lose weight, I know how to do it myself.. but my selfish sinful nature won't give up the very thing I know God is asking me to give up. It's an interesting realization, really.
The plain, honest truth that I just don't want to give up the sugar. And I mean temper tantrum don't want to... fall on the floor, pitch a fit and cry until I get my way kind of tantrum. That is not at all an exaggeration for the war that raged in me this weekend. I lost. Totally lost. But realized that deep in my heart I'm afraid to give up the control of what I eat.
So this food battle is so much more than being just about the food. It's not at all about the inches I would like to lose, or the blotchy skin I would like to clear up.. or the back fat that showed up 3 years ago and won't leave. This is about me being willing to give up control and desiring to trust that God really can be enough to fill my soul. Cause' that's really what it's about, isn't it? There's a hole I'm trying to fill that can only be filled by him. But I keep trying to stuff it with food, and the only thing that's overflowing is my waistline!
So I am starting over. I have yet to even make it 3 days in my 21 day challenge. But the only way I'm going to have success is if I acknowledge my failures and admit my weaknesses, learn from them and try again. I've had a lifetime of eating to cover up my pain. I can't expect to change that in a weekend.
I hope you all had a more successful weekend than me :)
Bethany